DOUBT YOUR DOUBTS
David faced more than one enemy from without and plenty of foes from within the kingdom. But none seemed to have thrust a knife in him like his son Absalom and trusted adviser Ahithophel. There was something sinister and evil about their actions and total disregard for his anointing by God as king of Israel. David didn’t mind that Goliath and the Philistines hated him; after all they were the enemy. But how do you respond when the attackers are supposed to be your friends? So David decided to let them know that their evil-minded plot was not only against him, but against a greater King who had picked him to be ruler over all Israel.
“O LORD Eternal, why does it seem at times like You don’t notice or even care that I’m in such deep trouble. Those who hate me are unashamed and proud about it – I wish they’d end up the same way they want me to end up. They openly brag about wanting to get things that aren’t even theirs; they even laugh about being so greedy, thus treating You with contempt and scorn. There’s one who is so disillusioned that he rejects any notion You will hold him accountable or even try to interfere with his wicked quest. And because nothing happens to him, he mocks me when I tell them that You will make him pay. He charges forward as though he has nothing to fear; that nothing can stop him from getting what he wants. So he goes around calling me names, while saying things that are totally misleading and false; it seems as though he can’t wait to brag to others about what he’s up to and how he’ll get away with it. But I want him to know that the LORD Eternal will always be my King; that evil people like him have no place in His kingdom. I have faith that my LORD Eternal will take care of those who are afflicted and give them what they need, so they can cope with their situation. He will stand up for and help believers who have been written off and discriminated against, so that evil people can’t push them around anymore.” Psalm 10:1-7, 16-17
Reflection: The famous British evangelist, pastor and Bible scholar Dr. G. Campbell Morgan was raised in a strict home where he amused himself preaching to his sister’s dolls. Being somewhat of an intellect he started reading the works of such scientists and agnostics as Charles Darwin, John Tyndall, Thomas Huxley and Herbert Spencer. By the time he was 19 he began to doubt what he had been taught about his Christian faith. In spite of enjoying a career as a successful minister, he became more and more perplexed with doubt about his beliefs. So he canceled all his speaking engagements, put all the books he was reading into a cupboard and locked them away. Then he went to the bookstore and bought himself a new Bible. He challenged himself with this resolution: “Although I’m no longer sure that this is the Word of God that my father told me about, I am sure that if it is the Word of God, and I come to it with an unprejudiced and open mind, it will bring assurance to my soul all by itself.” For two years he immersed himself in God’s Holy Word, and by the time he reached the Book of Revelation the light had returned and he never left the path of faith again. He went on the write some of the most influential books of his era that are still read by millions today. Like King David, Dr. Morgan believed that God had the answer to his doubts and fears and all he needed to do was take time to read and listen. Sometimes too much advice and counseling can cloud the mind and result in mixed feelings because of too many options. But God’s Word never changes, and is always there to direct us even during the darkest and most confusing times.