The Gospel According to Thomas is an early Christian non-canonical Gospel that is full of sayings many scholars believe provides insight into the Christian oral traditions around 50 AD before the Gospel of Matthew and others were made available. We don’t read it much, if at all because it was never made part of the New Testament. It was discovered near Nag Hammadi, Egypt, in December 1945 among a group of other scrolls known as the Nag Hammadi library.
In this Gospel of Thomas, we read this saying of our Lord: “If you bring forth what is within you, what is within you will save you. If you don’t bring forth what is within you, what is within you will destroy you.” The word “save” here does not mean salvation, but to preserve, keep you going, and keep you from faltering and quitting. These are what we call today: unspoken thoughts or communication. They may include an idea that could become a remedy or thought that might encourage someone or words of wisdom to give guidance.
But the most critical communication that must be delivered is that which is vital to our relationship with God and others. While serving as a Hospice Chaplain, one of the most oft-repeated regrets I heard from friends of the deceased and especially family members was, “I wish I would have told my Mom before she died how much I love her.” Or another, “I wish I would have asked Dad for forgiveness before he passed away. Now I’ll never have peace over what I’ve done.” And while serving as a Pastor, I heard some members say after a neighbor or relative died: “The Lord kept telling me to call them or go visit them and share with them what He put in my heart, but I kept putting it off. And now I’ll never be able to deliver the message He gave me.”
When someone withholds vital communication intended for you, they fail to pass on the needed information they promised to deliver to you. It may be something that clears up a misunderstanding that caused a problem or a breakdown in the relationship. When you find out, it’s as though they intentionally kept this knowledge from you to protect themselves. So when you realize what happened, you feel abused and violated.
Undelivered communications can become the source of so much agony, grief, and despair in the heart and mind of a person who didn’t take the time or make an effort to say what needed to be said for whatever reason. Don’t let it become an emotional cancer in your life. Let whatever you’re doing wait for later, but call that friend, visit your relative, share with the neighbor what is in your heart and on your mind. After all, even while you were a miserable sinner God knew He loved you. But He didn’t keep it to Himself. He sent His only Son to tell you. Aren’t you glad He did! – Dr. Robert R Seyda